Where the fuck did the stupid expression "Eigener Lob Stinkt" come from anyway??? It is German for Self-praise is unworthy, hollow, or in this case... it stinks! Well, we all like to hear people say nice things about us, and best of all we like it most when we can say nice things about ourselves.

But some stupid parent or teacher instilled you with this belief, probably because it was given to them by members of the society in which they grew up. So, in reality, they are just spreading that disease because that is all they've known.

But the buck stops here! I have made it a morning exercise to keep the TV off and meditate on what a wonderful person I am and all the fabulous qualities I posses.

And I am here to live my life. I am here to be me!!!

And if someone out there is displeased by this, then it is my obligation to do more of what I really want to do and be more of who I really want to be. It is also my obligation to do more of this so as to really get on their nerves and get them to have a fatal coronary seizure... upon which I will "die" laughing!!!

I have an obligation to myself to live my life the way I want to live it. I have an obligation to myself to think everything through and to undertake challenges.

Sure, it is easier to be on auto-pilot and just do as you are told,but then you haven't lived. Sure Auto-pilot is easy, but it is not always good.

The times of my life which today are still as fresh in my mind a if they happened yesterday are when I undertook challenges to think out of the norm and to take chances.

It is an exercise of the mind much like bodybuilding or competitive swimming. You must take time each morning or possibly several times a day to align your thoughts so that you are always praising and challenging yourself and not condemning and limiting yourself.

My father used to tell me as a child, "benimm dich, sonst was werden die menschen woll denken!" This meant behave yourself or what will people think and it also showed me that external validation meant the world to him.

And if I wanted to be the recipient of his love, I would have to forgo being a kid and act now like a grown-up.

I guess that also included imitating him and being very susceptible to what other people thought of me.

But, I am not here to be like the man who's sperm contributed to my birth.

I have now trained my mind not to go back there but instead to go forward and undertake new challenges merely for the purpose of keeping my mind, body, and soul fresh. I now go forward with an, "I Will", "I Can", and "I will continue until I succeed" attitude.

The moment I let someones externally imposed limits bring me to change myself, so as to conform to their rules, I have lost the game of life. So, now I may as well go and kill myself because by doing so I will have concluded that I have nothing else to live for, seeing as I would not be living my life, but rather a cheap copy of someone Else's.

Living my life takes constant planning and constant action. Sure, it is work! Sure, it takes energy! Sure, it can be tiring! But, this is what life is all about! Life is not a spectator sport!!!

So, I am the quarterback, the cheerleader, the manager, the coach, all rolled into one. Sure, I may later hire any one of these professionally, but I must still retain ultimate control, for if I don't, I will be living someone else's life!!!